Think POSITIVE

Karen here.

I am feeling LONELY.

I need FRIENDS.

Come visit ME.

Or pay for my FLIGHT

back HOME.

WAA WAA.

Kay, seriously, I wish I could come over and hang out. There comes a time when a girl just needs to have girl talk - and this is it for me. haha. Since I can't now, I guess I'll have to just talk and pretend like we're hanging out.

This past week I've been GLUED to the computer. The reason: I have this growing obsession that I need to buy something or do something worthwhile. I have never ever been the type of girl to want to buy a car but all of a sudden I totally want a car. I totally blame it on Hawaii. For the longest time I could just WALK anywhere; the bank, the beach, the store, friend's house, school, subway, ohana video, grama's house, surf. Now that I'm in Cali, everything requires a freakin CAR. So I've been doing some car research, mostly on used cars, and I see just a few cars that I like. But, when I look at the price tag, my head starts spinning. Having one car isn't enough!!! But I guess I have to live with it. Waa Waa.

Well, when I said that I feel like I need to do something worthwile I meant business. I going back to school!...once I get accepted, that is. haha. I've spoken to a counselor and now I just have to get the dang thing done! But it all falls back to MONEY honey. Geez, can't I escape this never ending cycle? Why does it nearly ALWAYS involve MONEY! So I'm going to apply for another Stafford Loan and hopefully everything falls into place. I'm going to get my masters in education with a single subject credential so I can teach high school english. Imagine that. The reason: I need money so I can afford to purchase a home, car, and pretty things. haha. And being a mommy should fit nicely with the work schedule and benfits. Then when I'm about 5 years into teaching I want to look into teaching at the junior college level. But that's a ways away. When I was in college, I thought I'd DIE before I ever became a teacher. I guess I suffered from major boredom so I never associated myself with the classroom. However, as I grow older, I realize that teaching is where I can make a start for myself. I can be with my kids all summer and winter during breaks. Medical benefits is also a major reason. But, if I get sick of dealing with teenies then I'll go a step higher and teach at the college level.

Besides all this, I'm totally back to NORMAL. Thank GOODNESS. I am about 16-17 weeks, according to my doctor. I was totally going to go to a guy doctor but I got weirded out so I canceled my appointment and found a woman doctor. Good thing I did cuz I felt totally at ease - just like I did with my doctor in Hawaii. I get my first ultrasound in 3 weeks and I'm stoked.

My Scotty is such a crack-up. I LOVE this little guy. He totally makes me smile even when he's asleep. Here's the lastest development with Scotty:

1. He's POTTY TRAINED! Okay, only during his waking hours. When he sleeps the diaper goes back on. Nooo way am I waking up to take him to pee. He wouldn't like that either.

2. He knows how to put his spiderman undies, shorts, and shirt on. Sometimes he needs a little help putting them on the right way, but hey it's progress right?

3. He speaks very well and is a great friend to other kids. I'm always getting compliments about him when others hear him speak. I love it when the nursery leader tells me, "Scotty is so quiet, is he like that at home?" Ohhh nooo ma'am.

4. One night he sat in the living room doing his 'homework'. I had nothing to do with it I swear. Then he shows me what he'd been working on. It was a page full of T's that he wrote from top to bottom (I need to post it). He's doing great with learning his letters. I think I wont have to worry too much with him at school =).

Okay that's enough. More than enough. Probably enough for another month. haha.